Letter Exchange
Jimmy
to Martha
Greetings Martha, My Love
It
has been a few days since we parted ways. If my memory serves me correct, this
is a tenth letter I am writing to you without getting
a feedback. At times, I feel like you are selfish and afraid to reciprocate
love. However, I vividly remember the last time we went to the local cinema hall (Chen, 2012). I knew you loved me because of the chemistry in the air. Today, I
do not understand what has changed but my love for you has not. To give you a
picture, I carry all the letters in my backpack every
day. At all times, I have your
good-luck pebble in my mouth, especially when we are on the battlefield. After a long day’s march, I open your poems and as I read, I imagined the prospects of
you returning my love someday.
There
are times when I drift away in thoughts and memories of you. In your poems, the
gesture in your signature betrays some positive emotions towards me. Unless you
confirm what I am thinking about it, I cannot allow it to give me a false hope.
Last night, I wondered uncontrollably if you are a virgin or not. Either way, I
must let you know that I carry your photographs wherever I go, including the
one that you play volleyball. They are the only items that keep me closer to you. I also harbour your
memories closer to my heart.
Do
you remember our first date? How about the movie Bonnie and Clyde? That was the moment when I touched your knee
during the last scene (O’Brien, 2011). If I am right, I retracted my fingers
because you looked at me with cold disapproving eyes. It was at that moment
that I realized how love confused us. Since we were young, I understood that
you were afraid to declare your love for me. Today, time has passed by quickly
and I am getting impatient. I was innocent and I lost an opportunity to carry
you upstairs, tie you to the bed and touch your thighs all night long.
Probably, you would not hesitate to
return my affection anymore if I executed my plan.
Las
week, there was a company here in Vietnam that destroyed tunnel complexes. I
imagined that the tunnels were collapsing on me and you. At that moment, I
wondered about your virginity and thought continuously about your smooth skin.
It did not take long before Lavender, my close friend and mentor, got fatally
wounded. I saw him fall on his back as he had a heavy
backpack. Yet, I could not rush to pull him back to safety because thoughts of
you distracted me. Later on, it sank that my friend and fellow soldier was no
more.
Did
I cause his death because I was thinking about you while on an active mission? It
dawned on me that my love for you is costly, it just took a life and you are
not even aware. Therefore, today marks a turning point. You will not receive a
letter from me because I will not fantasise about you anymore. I am also
burning your poems and photographs since
there is no need of holding on to them while you are unresponsive on how I feel
about you.
Bye for now.
Jimmy.
Martha to Jimmy
Dear Jimmy
I
hope that you are faring well in Vietnam. Back then in 1979 when we reconnected
at a college reunion, our conversation went on just fine. I cannot deny that we
spent a long time catching up but as we
talked, I realized how being apart after school resulted in contrasting
passions. Most of the things you were interested in were no longer on my list.
I told you that I am a Lutheran missionary and had participated in voluntary
work in Mexico, Guatemala, and Ethiopia
(Chen, 2012). Were you even listening? We may have started on a wrong footing
when I told you that I had never been married and did not know why. If the
signal you received is that I was ready for a relationship, receive my sincere
apologies. Even if I was, we should first aim at developing a strong bond
before moving to the next step. That is what normal people do. The feeling has
to be mutual.
If
you sought a sign, you should recall the time when you held and squeezed my
hand but I did not respond (O’Brien, 2011). You told me you loved me but could
not reply because I never took you seriously. We only had one date and it is
not enough to conclude mutual feelings. You say that you could have taken me
home, tie me to my bed, and kiss my knee throughout the night. While it is one
of the dumbest ideas I have ever heard, I agree that you should have considered that bold step when there was a
chance. Who knows? Perhaps the tone could be different right now. However, you
are half way across the world and we cannot keep doing this. I think that it
will never work and it’s time to move on. At the same time, I wish you well and
hope to see soon.
Each
night before I go to sleep, I pray that the war will be over so that people
could resume their lives. It saddens me to see people hurting each other
despite. It is hard to explain how a man can turn to his countryman (Wesley,
2012). Maybe it is due to greed or poor leadership. Not that I blame you for
participating in the war but maybe it is the system. Whichever way, it reveals
the sharp contrast between my convictions and your views. We cannot disregard
these and get into a relationship because they will resurface at one point. I
suggest that you reset your thoughts and not focus on the short term goals but the
long-term impact. What I know is that fantasizing about intimate moments is similar to expressing lust rather than love. If you are interested in
my poems, I will be sending more but do not re-interpret my intentions.
Take care.
Martha.
References
Chen, T. (2012). Unraveling the Deeper
Meaning": Exile and the Embodied Poetics of Displacement in Tim
O'Brien's" The Things They Carried. Contemporary Literature, 39(1), 77-98.
O'brien, T. (2011). The Things they Carried.
Boston: Houghton Mifflin Harcourt.
Wesley, M. (2012). Truth and Fiction in Tim
O'Brien's" If I Die in a Combat Zone" and" The Things They
Carried". College
Literature, 29(2),
1-18.
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